Club Q

I am full of emotion right now. I’m angry, heart-broken, and scared. As I write this, it is still a developing story so I don’t have anything but the most basic details released by the cops. A gunman has killed and injured many people in a LGBTQ+ club in Colorado Springs

I am devastated that another mass shooting has happened in my state. And another hate crime committed against this amazing and vulnerable community.

I am so proud to be a member of this community and most days I am proud to be a Coloradan. But right now I’m disgusted that we have such lax gun laws here. I hope with the Dems fully in charge of both houses and the governorship that this will be the impetus to maybe change that. I won’t hold my breath though.

 I think what has me the angriest is that I’m scared. I hate that I am second guessing going to events where there will be large gathering of queer folx. I’ve spent so much of my life being fearful–afraid of not being good enough, or thin enough, or worthy of love–and I’ve worked really hard at not living in fear, to be brave despite the fear.

I will continue to attend these events and I will do so defiantly. Narrow minded bigots be damned.

It’s going to be a tough day. Hug your loved ones if you can.

Take care my friends.

Update: I just saw a message from the club owners saying that the gunman was stopped by patrons in the club and the police say he’s in the hospital in custody. I hope they hurt him. This wanting makes me mad and sad too. I wish I was more evolved, but I am not. I really hope they hurt him.