Happy Mother’s Day!

Whether your kids have two feet or four, I am wishing for you a Happy Mother’s Day!

I sent my mother a solar powered watering can garden decoration with butterfly cutouts and she loved it. My son went to his grandmother’s house to help her with a phone app thing and I thanked him telling him it was a great mother’s day present for me that he helped her.

We got some good news this week–my agency finally approved my move! We no longer have that hanging over us. I cried tears of relief when I found out.

We should be celebrating, and we did, sort of, but I have not been feeling particularly festive. Tennessee and I are still not completely well and this lingering bug has exhausted us both mentally and physically. My mom is just now finally feeling better and my bestie is still struggling like us. Being sick for three or four weeks is sadly not out of the norm for me with my immune issues, but my wife has not experienced it before.

I really like saying that…my wife. It makes me smile every time I think it or say it.

Other good news we received this week is that we finally have an end date for our two house guests. I feel guilty about being so relieved they will be gone soon. They can be so cute and sweet, but they are mostly just exhausting at this stage.

We have been putting off the trip back to Colorado for the honeymoon/happily ever after party with my family and friends back there until we knew when the dogs would be going home, but that date is now much later than we originally planned. This means we are now bumping up against Pride Month activities back home and then the 4th of July.

Neither Tennessee nor I has much vacation time either, as we used quite a bit with our guests and the wedding. The drive to and from Colorado requires at least 10 days to ensure we have time to rest and see friends and we just don’t have the time built back up yet.

So we have decided to take a long weekend and go hang out at the beach, just the two of us. No dogs, no obligations, no chores, and no people unless we decide to leave the room. We’re not sure which beach yet or whether we’ll stay in a hotel or a VRBO. All I know is I want to be able to see and hear the waves from my balcony or porch.

I just want to make love to my wife and listen to the ocean. That’s not too much to ask for is it? Maybe read a little or write a bit.

I have not completed a single book this week though I have four of them started. Two for upcoming book clubs and two just for me. I just haven’t been in the head space to read…too restless.

If I’m honest, I’m feeling the pull of depression. I’m fairly certain that’s just the illness and the aftermath of the wedding excitement, but it has me a bit concerned. This, more than anything, is what has me convinced we need to go to the beach and do absolutely nothing but rest and recover.

We will still go back to Colorado when we’ve built up some leave. I miss my friends and want to spend some time with them celebrating this amazing new life we have made, but for now we need some just us time.

Take care of yourselves, my friends.