Put Some Windex On It

How did we get here?

Where do we go from here?

Should I have that third cup of coffee?

Y’all my mind has been spinning around those first two questions for weeks now but the answers to those are too nebulous.  I am frightened, angry, disgusted, and frankly, fighting off despair. So instead I have to focus on the more mundane or I will go insane.

FYI-the answer was no; I should not have had that third cup of coffee as I spent the rest of the afternoon and into the evening very jittery and on edge. I’m not sleeping well so I thought that a third cup would help but with my nervous system on overload to the point where I flinch when my work computer notifies me of a new email, the last thing I needed was more stimulant in my system. You’d think at my age I would know better, but there you go.

Tennessee and I are both struggling with the chaos that currently is our life but yesterday we got a much-needed reprieve. Her best friend came over with her adorable dog, Madge, and we had homemade vegetable beef soup and cornbread, and we watched “My Big Fat Greek Wedding“. Neither of them had seen it before and they let me talk them into watching it.

(Now when I say “put some Windex on it” they won’t look at me like I’m crazy.)

We had our fireplace going and the rain was falling, and it was a lovely, relaxing evening– very much needed. I’m hoping it helps me to focus on the things I have control of like doing our taxes and starting my microgreen project.

Also, I have finally started writing fiction again, both with my writing class assignments and during my morning sprints with fellow writers. Can I call them “fellow” writers when they are all women? Hmmm.

Anyway, it feels really good to be creating again. I have to keep reminding myself that the time I spend creating is not “wasted” and that, no I should not be washing laundry or emptying the dishwasher instead. Granted these are important things I need to do too, but there is time for both, and both are needed to stave off insanity.

I hope y’all find ways to stay sane and keep your balance. This crazy bumpy ride is going to last for awhile. Take care of yourselves.