A Bumpy Ride

I had a lovely weekend spending some one-on-one time with a couple of my friends. Hours in a coffee shop located in a bookstore and binge-watching Ted Lasso with two of my favorite people. Doesn’t get much better than that.

It helped me be not so envious of my fiancé getting last minute tickets to go see Brandi and Tanya in Nashville with her best friend. Just think, in a couple more months, I’ll be able to tag along, assuming they’ll let me. Though considering they probably didn’t get home until the wee hours on a work night maybe I still likely will say have fun.

I got a text this morning from a friend who said, “Tennessee in July? You must really love her.”

I laughed, but then thought OMG Tennessee in July!

I know a lot of my friends are happy for me and still think I’m bonkers. I wonder how many though. I know I have a couple who I would expect to say, “are you sure about this?” But none of them have. Not even my BFF who usually doesn’t shy away from telling me what she thinks.

So either they are confident that this is a good decision, or they are at least confident enough in me to know I wouldn’t be rash, that I would have thought through all the ramifications, that I will have a backup plan for contingencies.

I really love that I have surrounded myself with people who love and understand me and who are happy for me. I am going to miss them so much, but if the ties that bind are real, then we will always be banded together no matter how many miles separate us.

Yesterday I did a clarifying tarot reading and I pulled three sword cards out of five. The suit of swords, as I understand it, are associated with conflict, action, and change. Interspersed between the swords were the Devil first then the Fool which I interpreted as needing to face my fears before I can be fully open to this new adventure.

So I’ll apologize now to my readers if over the next couple months you have to slog through posts of me trying to verbalize doubts and fears juxtaposed with bursts of elation and excitement. It’s likely to be a bumpy ride, but I’m so glad you’re on it with me.

Be well my friends.