Some Good News

A blank page is sometimes exciting and sometimes dreadful. Yesterday it was dreadful, so I bypassed it to get a bit of work done before my early morning meeting. It took two cups of coffee and a toasted PB & J to get me close to functioning and it was a struggle all day.

Despite all that though my day drastically improved when my request to work from Tennessee’s house for three months was approved.

Until that went through, various tasks couldn’t be done but now we can move forward. I was reluctant to do too much until I knew for sure it was approved because, well I know I can trust my immediate supervisor, but she doesn’t have the final say and I’m just not nearly as confident in those further up the chain.

Murphy’s law is a familiar foe in my life, and, despite significant manifesting, it loves to pop up at the worst possible times. I’ve done a lot of work around not waiting for the other shoe to drop or for Murphy to appear. Living in the moment is the only way to avoid that feeling but that is difficult to do when trying to plan a huge life event, let alone two.

So now that we’re past this first major hurdle, I can worry less. Until I got the approval, I wasn’t aware of how worried I really was. Like not realizing you are holding your breath until someone says “breathe” or you pass out.

I was hoping that this releasing of my metaphoric breath would let me get some sleep last night. I did sleep well once I fell asleep, but it took a while. Truth be told I haven’t really slept well since Tennessee left.  I could really use a good night’s sleep. Soon.

In the meantime, I’m wishing you all a happy first day of Pride Month. Be well and stay safe my friends.